Thus far, the student presentations had been well done and I began to rely on them to jump start the class discussions. The presenters for this week had grossly misread the readings and we spiralled into a strange conversation. The students were very set on “catching the terrorist” and deeply invested in the constructed notion of security. I let the students speak pop-corn style and eventually I stopped them and asked “What is a terrorist?”. In my attempt to deconstruct the binary rhetoric of security vs. threat, I asked just how much of their freedoms and rights they are willing to give up to the state in the name of security, which is itself manufactured.
One white male student claimed that he has been stopped and his files examined at the airport during travels and felt that he is willing to give up a small amount of freedom because he knows he’ll be let go at the end. I felt the violence of that statement resonate in the classroom. What do I do as an instructor in such situations? Due to my general aversion to conflict, my immediate reaction was to open it up to the class. Luckily one student critically intervened. I asked the class who has been stopped at the border or their names caught on some kind of watch-list. About five raised their hands, including the white male student. The other four were either people of colour or racially white but (as we had established in previous classes) had racialized names. I was stuck again. I didn’t want to point this out, thereby tokenizing or highlighting their marginality without their consent. But I wasn’t sure whether my point came across.
I realized that, when it comes to border security, many university students have a difficult time with critical engagement. I also realized that I don’t have the skills to deal with comments that reinforce dominant ideology and perpetuate violence in the classroom. I think that as a critical scholar committed to anti-discrimination and anti-oppression, I lack the skills and know-how to address these issues in class discussions. I’ve been drawing on my experiences from my days of queer youth organizing and AIDS education but I need more specific strategies for the classroom. The events of this class deeply affected me. I felt that I had failed some students (including the one who spoke out at the problematic comment) and failed my own politics. My friend assured me that I did the best that I could. Talking with her, I realized that I need anti-discrimination and anti-oppression training. I remember from my years in Toronto that there are community advocacy organizations who conduct such workshops in community groups and other companies/organizations. They have a wealth of knowledge and know-how in dealing with oppression in social/classroom situations . I need help to actualize and strategize my theoretical training.